Yesterday - Tuesday - was a cleanse day for me.
Sometimes you think that not being able to drink on a given day is a rip-off or a sacrifice. Because if you have a 'problem,' you know the only time you're more depressed than when you're drinking ... is when you're not. And honestly, some cleanse days are like 'whatever, can't wait for tomorrow. so just be over.' (Though that's rare.)
But usually cleanse days are great. And yesterday, though nothing really special happened, I was in a productive, happy, even occasionally blissful mood. I felt healthy and balanced. Strong and centered. I didn't care that I wasn't going to drink yesterday. In fact, I kind of loved it. I really did.
I enjoy the difference cleanse days have from drinking days. It brings real variety to my life. Cleanse days keep you in touch with who you are, what you want, where you're going. When you drink every day - especially heavy drinking - you can start to lose yourself in the booze.
But cleansing teaches you how to find other things that bring joy and fulfillment to your life. Because drinking every day all year long is not an option for you anymore. So by necessity, you're forced to learn more about what makes you happy and go out and find it. I guess what cleansing really does is help you think outside the bottle.
And that's a lot better than being trapped by it.