Friday, March 25, 2011

Day 25 - Still Alive

The last weekend is just about to start. But the hubby is sick with a very nasty cold and I'm stuck doing the rest of those chores I meant to get to, so it's not as if we're walking on sunshine here. Life is still life.

Monday the 28th is the last day of my cleanse, meaning Tuesday is my first drinking day. I usually start a cleanse on a Tuesday because I can't stomach the idea of losing a weekend early in a cleanse. I'd rather really party and feel "ready" to cleanse. Seriously. I know it sounds irresponsible, but if you really indulge yourself in the days leading up to a cleanse, you'll actually feel more "ready" for it.

Btw, I'm not talking about getting so blasted that you can't walk, talk, think, remember who you are or have to get your stomach pumped in the E.R. I'm just saying if you feel like having a glass of wine or a morning glory at noon, go for it! It really does help to have had "enough" when a cleanse starts ... and, yes, as you start cleansing, you really will get to a point where you CAN have "enough" even though you may not have felt that way for many years. I know before I started cleansing, I could never have enough to drink. I always wanted, always needed, more. Which is how you can get into serious emotional and physical problems. But that's part of the gift of cleansing: being more in touch with your true and healthy "limit" and happily living with it.

Back to timing the start of a cleanse. So the last party weekend is out. But the idea of starting on a Monday doesn't sit well with me either. It seems to make sense in a "fresh start" kind of way, but facing Monday - AND the first day of a cleanse on the same day? Forget it. So Tuesday seems to work best.

When you start drinking again you'll be back in the swing of two days off a week. I usually take Tuesday and Thursdays as my "off" days. But for the first week back, I count Monday as a day off, and the regular Thursday. Yes, a little bonus to myself. :)

Again, try not to overdo it that first week or two. Your tolerance levels will be different and you won't need as much to feel a buzz - or feel hungover the next day. More importantly, you risk throwing off the whole reason you cleansed in the first place - to actually reduce the amount of alcohol you want to (or are able) to drink. If you can't continue to drink more and more (and more, which is what happens with any addictive substance) because of regular cleanses, you can't get back into the cycle of dopamine depression and addiction. It's all about keeping the pleasures of alcohol vibrant and real, while reducing the negative impact of it on your system. It's all about balance.

"All fits of pleasure are balanced by an equal degree of pain or languor; 'tis like spending this year part of the next year's revenue." Jonathan Swift (1667-1745)

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