Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Off the Wagon!

"Wine is a noble, generous liquor, and we should be humbly thankful for it; but, as I remember, water was made before it." John Eliot, English missionary to Native Americans. (1604-90)

I had two glasses of wine last night. It's funny, but it's really not such a big deal at all anymore. One way or the other. Not even after my long cleanse, when I had my first drink in over six months, was it all fireworks and fanfare.

Don't expect to feel elation when you have that first drink. It can be kind of anti-climactic. But that's good. You're trying to put alcohol in perspective. It's not a panacea, it's not a solution for every problem you have, it's not going to change your life. Don't expect it to. This is about normalizing your relationship with alcohol - not making it more acute.

I didn't have a hangover this morning - and I'm grateful for that. But that's another wonderful thing about cleansing: it puts you in touch with how much harm you might be doing to your body by drinking too much. Without regular cleanses - without a healthy, physical gauge of total sobriety - you might not even realize that you're dealing with hangovers or dopamine depression all the time. I know that's the way it was with me. I didn't know that I was constantly living in a toxic condition - because I didn't know how "normal" felt.

But now I do. And it feels great. It also feels great to be off my cleanse. There are still some nice patio days out there. :)

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